As I lay here and wait for the time to send my daughter off to school I realized I got discouraged. My mind began to wonder off on things that I’ve done to impact, encourage and even loved but never get in return. I started to feel like I felt in my school days, alone. Why? Because when we see others being praised and loved and others enjoying them we feel left out. We feel like no one sees what we are doing or have accomplished. When we began to feel that way, depression sneaks in and we began to feel sorry for ourselves. I know I’m not the only one that feels this way. I can’t be! Tears began to fall from my face because I wonder do others notice me. Why haven’t my light shined. My mind goes on and on but every time I began to feel that way, I always hear a voice telling me not to give up. Don’t throw in the towel. It’s hard but I hold on to that. I’m older and it feels likes my light it’s going to shine. It’s hard seeing others living their best life and I’m just here. It’s 5:30 am and I’m feeling this way? Yes! But as the sun gets ready to shine I have to continue to get up and keep moving no matter what it looks like. I realize that I have to encourage myself if no one else will. I have to love myself even when I feel lost and alone. I know that I try to be the best person that I was created to be but at times it takes everything out of me to get up and keep pushing. I’ve written books, preached, help others in more ways I can think of but my light still seems dim. I’m not gettting any younger. My motivation is my daughter. Seeing her face everyday brings joy to my soul. Being strong for her and having the courage I need to move forward is what gets me from point A to point B. I’m trusting and believing that it’s going to get better!
~Don’t Get Discouraged~
~One Day At A Time~